0.
아이돌의<span class="s1"> </span>연애라는<span class="s1"> </span>건<span class="s1"> </span>무엇일까<span class="s1">. </span>왜<span class="s1"> </span>팬들은<span class="s1"> </span>아이돌이<span class="s1"> </span>연애를<span class="s1"> </span>하면<span class="s1"> </span>실망하는<span class="s1"> </span>것일까<span class="s1">. </span>
아이돌과<span class="s1"> </span>결혼하기<span class="s1"> </span>위해<span class="s1">, </span>연애하기<span class="s1"> </span>위해<span class="s1"> </span>그들을<span class="s1"> </span>좋아하는<span class="s1"> </span>것이<span class="s1"> </span>아님을<span class="s1">, </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>스스로가<span class="s1"> </span>잘<span class="s1"> </span>알고<span class="s1"> </span>있는데<span class="s1">.</span>
쿠첸은<span class="s1"> </span>항상<span class="s1"> </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>감정의<span class="s1"> </span>근원이<span class="s1"> </span>궁금했다<span class="s1">. </span>냉정하게<span class="s1"> </span>말한다면<span class="s1">, </span>어차피<span class="s1"> </span>아이돌이<span class="s1"> </span>다른<span class="s1"> </span>사람과<span class="s1"> </span>사귀지<span class="s1"> </span>않는다해도<span class="s1">, </span>팬들에게<span class="s1"> </span>아이돌과<span class="s1"> </span>사귈<span class="s1"> </span>기회가<span class="s1"> </span>주어지는<span class="s1"> </span>건<span class="s1"> </span>아니었다<span class="s1">.</span>
데뷔한<span class="s1"> </span>이후<span class="s1">, </span>인기가<span class="s1"> </span>없을<span class="s1"> </span>때건<span class="s1"> </span>많을때건<span class="s1"> </span>매력적인<span class="s1"> </span>자신에게<span class="s1"> </span>다가온<span class="s1"> </span>이들은<span class="s1"> </span>많았다<span class="s1">. </span>쿠첸은<span class="s1"> </span>그룹의<span class="s1"> </span>리더로서<span class="s1"> </span>모범을<span class="s1"> </span>보여야<span class="s1"> </span>했기에<span class="s1"> </span>그들을<span class="s1"> </span>모두<span class="s1"> </span>거부하면서도<span class="s1">, </span>왜<span class="s1"> </span>연애를<span class="s1"> </span>하면<span class="s1"> </span>안되는지<span class="s1">, </span>팬들의<span class="s1"> </span>반응은<span class="s1"> </span>싸늘하게<span class="s1"> </span>식는지<span class="s1"> </span>내심<span class="s1"> </span>궁금했다<span class="s1">.</span>
하지만<span class="s1"> </span>쿠첸은<span class="s1"> </span>이제서야<span class="s1"> </span>알<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>있었다<span class="s1">.</span>
<span class="s1">‘</span>긴급공지<span class="s1"> - </span>강리자<span class="s1"> </span>결혼<span class="s1"> </span>기념<span class="s1"> </span>사랑방<span class="s1"> </span>최초이자<span class="s1"> </span>최후의<span class="s1"> </span>정모<span class="s1">’</span>
‘<span class="s2">아</span>..!’
쿠첸은<span class="s1"> </span>글을<span class="s1"> </span>보자마자<span class="s1"> </span>머리가<span class="s1"> </span>복잡해졌다<span class="s1">.</span>
<span class="s1">‘</span>아니<span class="s1">, </span>이<span class="s1"> </span>사람이<span class="s1"> </span>누군지도<span class="s1"> </span>모르고<span class="s1">, </span>별<span class="s1"> </span>다른<span class="s1"> </span>관계도<span class="s1"> </span>아닌데<span class="s1">.. </span>왜<span class="s1">.. </span>씁쓸한<span class="s1"> </span>감정이<span class="s1"> </span>드는거지<span class="s1">..? </span>왜<span class="s1">..?’</span>
알<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>없는<span class="s1"> </span>심란함을<span class="s1"> </span>느낀<span class="s1"> </span>쿠첸은<span class="s1"> </span>자신도<span class="s1"> </span>모르게<span class="s1"> </span>머리<span class="s1"> </span>끝을<span class="s1"> </span>꼬고<span class="s1"> </span>있었다<span class="s1">.</span>
<span class="s1">‘</span>아니<span class="s1">, </span>그보다<span class="s1"> </span>강리자<span class="s1"> </span>연애<span class="s1"> </span>얘기는<span class="s1"> </span>사랑방에서<span class="s1"> </span>꺼낸적도<span class="s1"> </span>없는데<span class="s1">.. </span>너무<span class="s1"> </span>뜬금없잖아<span class="s1">’</span>
하지만<span class="s1"> </span>이내<span class="s1"> </span>아이돌의<span class="s1"> </span>연애<span class="s1"> </span>기사를<span class="s1"> </span>접한<span class="s1"> </span>팬들의<span class="s1"> </span>마음이<span class="s1"> </span>떠올랐다<span class="s1">. </span>아이돌의<span class="s1"> </span>연애<span class="s1"> </span>소식<span class="s1"> </span>또한<span class="s1">, </span>어느날<span class="s1"> </span>갑작스럽게<span class="s1"> </span>터지는<span class="s1"> </span>거니까<span class="s1">. </span>
<span class="s1">‘</span>매일<span class="s1"> </span>아이돌<span class="s1"> </span>사진이나<span class="s1"> </span>올리는<span class="s1"> </span>사람이었는데<span class="s1">.. </span>팬싸인회까지<span class="s1"> </span>오고<span class="s1">..! </span>하지만<span class="s1">..</span>하지만<span class="s1"> </span>그건<span class="s1"> </span>그냥<span class="s1"> </span>단면이었구나<span class="s1">. </span>아니<span class="s1">, </span>내가<span class="s1"> </span>저<span class="s1"> </span>사람을<span class="s1"> </span>알긴해<span class="s1">..? </span>내가<span class="s1"> </span>저<span class="s1"> </span>사람에<span class="s1"> </span>대해서<span class="s1"> </span>알고<span class="s1"> </span>있는건<span class="s1"> </span>아무것도<span class="s1">..</span>사랑방에서<span class="s1"> </span>보는<span class="s1"> </span>모습은<span class="s1"> </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>사람의<span class="s1"> </span>일부고<span class="s1">, </span>모든걸<span class="s1"> </span>공개하진<span class="s1"> </span>않겠지<span class="s1">.’</span>
쿠첸은<span class="s1"> </span>다시<span class="s1"> </span>한번<span class="s1"> </span>아이돌과의<span class="s1"> </span>팬의<span class="s1"> </span>관계를<span class="s1"> </span>떠올렸다<span class="s1">. </span>그들<span class="s1"> </span>역시<span class="s1"> </span>서로의<span class="s1"> </span>일부분만<span class="s1"> </span>알고<span class="s1"> </span>있는<span class="s1"> </span>간접적인<span class="s1"> </span>관계였다<span class="s1">. </span>
<span class="s1">‘</span>아이돌의<span class="s1"> </span>연애<span class="s1"> </span>소식을<span class="s1"> </span>들은<span class="s1"> </span>팬들의<span class="s1"> </span>마음이<span class="s1">..</span>이런걸까<span class="s1">..’</span>
사실<span class="s1"> </span>따지고보면<span class="s1"> </span>아무것도<span class="s1"> </span>아닌<span class="s1"> </span>관계<span class="s1">. </span>따지고보면<span class="s1"> </span>서로에<span class="s1"> </span>대해<span class="s1"> </span>알고<span class="s1"> </span>있는<span class="s1"> </span>것은<span class="s1"> </span>아무것도<span class="s1"> </span>없는<span class="s1"> </span>관계<span class="s1">. </span>서로<span class="s1"> </span>직접<span class="s1"> </span>얘기한<span class="s1"> </span>적도<span class="s1">, </span>서로<span class="s1"> </span>직접<span class="s1"> </span>만난<span class="s1"> </span>적도<span class="s1"> </span>없는<span class="s1"> </span>관계<span class="s1">.</span>
<span class="s1">‘</span>나랑<span class="s1"> </span>강리자도<span class="s1"> </span>만나본적이<span class="s1"> </span>없<span class="s1">..</span>진<span class="s1"> </span>않구나<span class="s1">.’</span>
쿠첸은<span class="s1"> </span>서로를<span class="s1"> </span>보지<span class="s1"> </span>않았지만<span class="s1"> </span>서로를<span class="s1"> </span>본<span class="s1">, </span>팬<span class="s1"> </span>싸인회를<span class="s1"> </span>떠올렸다<span class="s1">. </span>마음이<span class="s1"> </span>심란해진<span class="s1"> </span>쿠첸은<span class="s1"> </span>다시한번<span class="s1"> </span>공지를<span class="s1"> </span>읽어봤다<span class="s1">. </span>장소는<span class="s1"> </span>청대앞<span class="s1"> </span>먹자골목<span class="s1">. </span>시간은<span class="s1">… </span>마침<span class="s1"> </span>그날<span class="s1"> </span>스케쥴은<span class="s1"> </span>비어있었다<span class="s1">. </span>
<span class="s1">‘</span>아니<span class="s1">, </span>설마<span class="s1"> </span>갈<span class="s1"> </span>생각을<span class="s1"> </span>하고<span class="s1"> </span>있는거야<span class="s1">?’</span>
쿠첸은<span class="s1"> </span>뺨을<span class="s1"> </span>가볍게<span class="s1"> </span>때린<span class="s1"> </span>후<span class="s1"> </span>침대에<span class="s1"> </span>얼굴을<span class="s1"> </span>파묻었다<span class="s1">.</span>
<span class="s1">‘</span>궁금하긴<span class="s1"> </span>해<span class="s1">. </span>만약<span class="s1"> </span>가게<span class="s1"> </span>된다면<span class="s1">..’</span>
만약<span class="s1"> </span>쿠첸이<span class="s1"> </span>피아라는<span class="s1"> </span>사실을<span class="s1"> </span>강리자가<span class="s1"> </span>알게<span class="s1"> </span>된다면<span class="s1"> </span>어떤<span class="s1"> </span>반응을<span class="s1"> </span>보일까<span class="s1">? </span>이미<span class="s1"> </span>자신이<span class="s1"> </span>만나봤던<span class="s1"> </span>아이돌이라는<span class="s1"> </span>걸<span class="s1"> </span>알게되면<span class="s1">..? </span>매일<span class="s1"> </span>자신이<span class="s1"> </span>사진을<span class="s1"> </span>올리던<span class="s1"> </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>아이돌인<span class="s1"> </span>걸<span class="s1"> </span>알게된다면<span class="s1">?</span>
쿠첸은<span class="s1"> </span>곰곰히<span class="s1"> </span>생각에<span class="s1"> </span>잠겼다<span class="s1">. </span>
1.
강리자<span class="s1"> </span>역시<span class="s1"> </span>글을<span class="s1"> </span>올리고<span class="s1"> </span>곰곰히<span class="s1"> </span>생각했다<span class="s1">.</span>
어쩌면<span class="s1">, </span>쿠첸<span class="s1"> </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>자리에<span class="s1"> </span>역시<span class="s1"> </span>올<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>있을지도<span class="s1"> </span>몰랐다<span class="s1">. </span>어쩌면<span class="s1"> </span>가장<span class="s1"> </span>자신을<span class="s1"> </span>드러내고<span class="s1"> </span>싶어하지<span class="s1"> </span>않을까<span class="s1">..?</span>
그가<span class="s1"> </span>올렸던<span class="s1"> </span>암호<span class="s1"> </span>같은<span class="s1"> </span>글들은<span class="s1">.. </span>오히려<span class="s1"> </span>적극적인<span class="s1"> </span>해석을<span class="s1"> </span>요구한다는<span class="s1"> </span>점에서<span class="s1"> 다른</span><span class="s1"> </span>글들보다 더<span class="s1"> </span>사람들의<span class="s1"> </span>집중과<span class="s1"> </span>주목을<span class="s1"> </span>필요로<span class="s1"> </span>했다<span class="s1">. </span>
쿠첸은<span class="s1"> </span>어쩌면<span class="s1">, </span>현실에서는<span class="s1"> </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>누구보다<span class="s1"> </span>다른<span class="s1"> </span>사람들의<span class="s1"> </span>주목을<span class="s1"> </span>즐길<span class="s1"> </span>줄<span class="s1"> </span>아는<span class="s1"> </span>사람일지도<span class="s1">. </span>그동안<span class="s1"> </span>없었던<span class="s1">, </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>이후로<span class="s1"> </span>없을<span class="s1"> </span>정모라면<span class="s1">, </span>쿠첸은<span class="s1"> </span>충분히<span class="s1"> </span>나오지<span class="s1"> </span>않을까<span class="s1">..?</span>
그리고<span class="s1">, </span>쿠첸이<span class="s1"> </span>누군지<span class="s1"> </span>알게<span class="s1"> </span>된다면<span class="s1">, </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>둘은<span class="s1"> </span>어떤<span class="s1"> </span>관계로<span class="s1"> </span>발전할수<span class="s1"> </span>있지<span class="s1"> </span>않을까<span class="s1">..?</span>
2.
정모<span class="s1"> </span>당일<span class="s1">, </span>멍하게<span class="s1"> </span>있던<span class="s1"> </span>쿠첸은<span class="s1"> </span>사랑방에<span class="s1"> </span>올린<span class="s1"> </span>글들을<span class="s1"> </span>다시<span class="s1"> </span>한번<span class="s1"> </span>복습했다<span class="s1">.</span>
많은<span class="s1"> </span>사람들이<span class="s1"> </span>자신의<span class="s1"> </span>속내들을<span class="s1"> </span>털어놓으며<span class="s1"> </span>서로의<span class="s1"> </span>못남을<span class="s1"> </span>자랑하는<span class="s1"> </span>공간이었고<span class="s1">, </span>쿠첸<span class="s1"> </span>자신도<span class="s1"> </span>예외는<span class="s1"> </span>아니었다<span class="s1">.</span>
기나긴<span class="s1"> </span>무명<span class="s1"> </span>활동<span class="s1"> </span>또한<span class="s1"> </span>틈틈히<span class="s1"> </span>눈팅을<span class="s1"> </span>했고<span class="s1">, </span>고정닉을<span class="s1"> </span>판<span class="s1"> </span>이후엔<span class="s1">, </span>일정시간이<span class="s1"> </span>지난<span class="s1"> </span>글들을<span class="s1"> ..</span>으로<span class="s1"> </span>바꾸어놓았지만<span class="s1">, </span>사람들은<span class="s1"> </span>애정어린<span class="s1"> </span>댓글들을<span class="s1"> </span>달아줬다<span class="s1">.</span>
곡<span class="s1"> </span>작업<span class="s1"> </span>중<span class="s1">, </span>탈락한<span class="s1"> </span>가사들을<span class="s1"> </span>신혼방에<span class="s1"> </span>써놓기도<span class="s1"> </span>했다<span class="s1">. </span>그럴<span class="s1"> </span>때마다<span class="s1"> </span>사람들은<span class="s1"> </span>암호<span class="s1"> </span>같은<span class="s1"> </span>글에<span class="s1"> </span>열광해줬다<span class="s1">. </span>어쩔<span class="s1"> </span>땐<span class="s1"> </span>자신이<span class="s1"> </span>봐도<span class="s1"> </span>알<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>없는<span class="s1"> </span>글들이었지만<span class="s1">.</span>
<span class="s1">‘</span>사람되면<span class="s1"> </span>큰<span class="s1"> </span>고양이<span class="s1"> </span>백마리<span class="s1"> </span>이름<span class="s1"> </span>지어줘야지<span class="s1"> </span>작은<span class="s1"> </span>고양이<span class="s1"> </span>젤리로<span class="s1"> </span>도장<span class="s1"> </span>찍어서<span class="s1"> </span>인감<span class="s1"> </span>만들거다<span class="s1"> </span>그날로써<span class="s1"> </span>주택청약은<span class="s1"> </span>상처받는다<span class="s1">’</span>
‘올해 여름<span class="s1"> </span>사과맛만 솎아서<span class="s1"> </span>땅속에<span class="s1"> </span>머리만<span class="s1"> </span>내놓고<span class="s1"> </span>묻어버린다. 가을엔 하리보 삼모작 대신 여름 눈알 젤리 수확한다.’
<span class="s1">‘</span>양조장<span class="s1"> </span>옆집<span class="s1"> </span>사서<span class="s1"> </span>효모<span class="s1"> </span>분수<span class="s1"> </span>심어야지<span class="s1"> </span>인간물레방아<span class="s1"> </span>효모호모효모호모<span class="s1">’</span>
쿠첸의<span class="s1"> </span>글은<span class="s1"> </span>언제나<span class="s1"> </span>존중받고<span class="s1"> </span>있었다<span class="s1">. </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>존중엔<span class="s1"> </span>말없이<span class="s1"> </span>게시판을<span class="s1"> </span>관리하는<span class="s1"> </span>강리자가<span class="s1"> </span>있었다<span class="s1">.</span>
<span class="s1">‘</span>찌질거리는<span class="s1"> </span>이를<span class="s1"> </span>까지말라<span class="s1">’ </span>
이<span class="s1"> </span>원칙<span class="s1"> </span>아래<span class="s1"> </span>쿠첸은<span class="s1"> </span>어떤<span class="s1"> </span>말이든<span class="s1"> </span>할<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>있었다<span class="s1">. </span>그런<span class="s1">, </span>사랑방을<span class="s1"> </span>지켜왔던<span class="s1"> </span>강리자가<span class="s1"> </span>결혼을<span class="s1"> </span>하는<span class="s1"> </span>것이었다<span class="s1">.</span>
<span class="s1">‘</span>무엇보다<span class="s1">.. </span>나<span class="s1"> </span>역시<span class="s1"> </span>이<span class="s1"> </span>사람이<span class="s1"> </span>누군지<span class="s1"> </span>궁금하긴<span class="s1"> </span>해<span class="s1">.’</span>
쿠첸은<span class="s1"> </span>시계와<span class="s1"> </span>차키를<span class="s1"> </span>번갈아<span class="s1"> </span>바라봤다<span class="s1">. </span>
<span class="s1">‘</span>시간은<span class="s1"> </span>충분해<span class="s1">. </span>무엇보다<span class="s1"> </span>중요한건<span class="s1">, </span>내가<span class="s1"> </span>원하는<span class="s1"> </span>것인가<span class="s1">. </span>무엇보다<span class="s1">.. </span>내가<span class="s1">..’</span>
잠시<span class="s1"> </span>주먹을<span class="s1"> </span>꽉<span class="s1"> </span>쥐었던<span class="s1"> </span>쿠첸은<span class="s1">, </span>모자를<span class="s1"> </span>눌러쓴채<span class="s1"> </span>키를<span class="s1"> </span>들고<span class="s1"> </span>숙소<span class="s1"> </span>밖을<span class="s1"> </span>나섰다<span class="s1">.</span>
3.
일찍부터<span class="s1"> </span>약속<span class="s1"> </span>장소에<span class="s1"> </span>나와있던<span class="s1"> </span>강리자는<span class="s1"> </span>누구든<span class="s1"> </span>환영할<span class="s1"> </span>마음이<span class="s1"> </span>있었다<span class="s1">. </span>그러나<span class="s1"> </span>제일<span class="s1"> </span>기다리는<span class="s1"> </span>사람은<span class="s1"> </span>역시<span class="s1"> </span>한사람<span class="s1"> </span>뿐이었다<span class="s1">.</span>
‘<span class="s2">과연</span>, <span class="s2">그가</span> <span class="s2">올까</span>.’
예견할<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>없다는<span class="s1"> </span>듯<span class="s1">, </span>하늘은<span class="s1"> </span>꾸물꾸물한<span class="s1"> </span>먹구름을<span class="s1"> </span>품고<span class="s1"> </span>있었다<span class="s1">.</span>
4.
<span class="s1">‘</span>뭐라고<span class="s1"> </span>말해야할까<span class="s1">? </span>내가<span class="s1"> </span>피아라고<span class="s1"> </span>말한다면<span class="s1"> </span>어떤<span class="s1"> </span>반응을<span class="s1"> </span>보일까<span class="s1">?’</span>
쿠첸은<span class="s1"> </span>차를<span class="s1"> </span>몰고<span class="s1"> </span>가면서<span class="s1"> </span>내심<span class="s1"> </span>강리자의<span class="s1"> </span>반응을<span class="s1"> </span>계속<span class="s1"> </span>상상하고<span class="s1"> </span>있었다<span class="s1">.</span>
<span class="s1">‘</span>분명<span class="s1">, </span>다른<span class="s1"> </span>사람들도<span class="s1"> </span>놀라겠지<span class="s1">. </span>쿠첸의<span class="s1"> </span>정체가<span class="s1">, </span>정말로<span class="s1"> </span>아이돌이었을<span class="s1"> </span>줄은<span class="s1"> </span>꿈에도<span class="s1"> </span>모를테니까<span class="s1">.’</span>
그간<span class="s1"> </span>사랑방에<span class="s1"> </span>아이돌<span class="s1"> </span>사진을<span class="s1"> </span>올린<span class="s1"> </span>사람이<span class="s1"> </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>당사자였다면<span class="s1">? </span>사랑방<span class="s1"> </span>아이돌이<span class="s1">, </span>실은<span class="s1"> </span>실제<span class="s1"> </span>아이돌이라는<span class="s1"> </span>걸<span class="s1"> </span>알게된다면<span class="s1">? </span>알<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>없는<span class="s1"> </span>글들이<span class="s1">, </span>실은<span class="s1"> </span>노래<span class="s1"> </span>가사가<span class="s1"> </span>되지<span class="s1"> </span>못한<span class="s1"> </span>작업들이란<span class="s1"> </span>걸<span class="s1"> </span>알게<span class="s1"> </span>된다면<span class="s1">? </span>
쿠첸이<span class="s1"> </span>틀어놓은<span class="s1"> </span>라디오에선<span class="s1"> </span>마침<span class="s1">, </span>인디밴드가<span class="s1"> </span>리메이크한<span class="s1"> ‘</span>내가<span class="s1"> </span>고백을<span class="s1"> </span>하면<span class="s1"> </span>깜짝<span class="s1"> </span>놀랄거야<span class="s1">’</span>가<span class="s1"> </span>흘러나오고<span class="s1"> </span>있었다<span class="s1">.</span>
<span class="s1">‘</span>어느<span class="s1"> </span>때보다<span class="s1"> </span>짜릿한<span class="s1"> </span>일인데<span class="s1">. </span>아이돌이<span class="s1"> </span>사실은<span class="s1">..’</span>
쿠첸은<span class="s1"> </span>흥분된<span class="s1"> </span>마음으로<span class="s1"> </span>청대를<span class="s1"> </span>향해<span class="s1"> </span>가고<span class="s1"> </span>있었지만<span class="s1">, </span>약속장소로<span class="s1"> </span>향하면서<span class="s1">, </span>그리고<span class="s1"> </span>주차를<span class="s1"> </span>한<span class="s1"> </span>후<span class="s1"> </span>걸어가면서<span class="s1"> </span>조금<span class="s1"> </span>더<span class="s1"> </span>침착해져갔다<span class="s1">.</span>
<span class="s1">‘</span>아이돌이<span class="s1">.. </span>사실은<span class="s1">.. </span>쿠첸이란<span class="s1"> </span>걸<span class="s1"> </span>알게되면<span class="s1">? </span>그렇게<span class="s1"> </span>되면<span class="s1">?’</span>
쿠첸은<span class="s1"> </span>아이돌이<span class="s1"> </span>연애를<span class="s1"> </span>하지<span class="s1"> </span>않는<span class="s1"> </span>이유를<span class="s1"> </span>한가지<span class="s1"> </span>더<span class="s1"> </span>알고<span class="s1"> </span>있었다<span class="s1">. </span>아이돌이<span class="s1"> </span>우상으로<span class="s1"> </span>존재할<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>있는<span class="s1"> </span>것은<span class="s1">, </span>현실에서<span class="s1"> </span>만날<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>없는<span class="s1"> </span>이상<span class="s1"> </span>속의<span class="s1"> </span>존재였기<span class="s1"> </span>때문이었다<span class="s1">.</span>
연애라는<span class="s1"> </span>건<span class="s1"> </span>현실<span class="s1"> </span>속<span class="s1"> ‘</span>보통<span class="s1">’ </span>사람들의<span class="s1"> </span>일이었고<span class="s1">, </span>보통<span class="s1"> </span>사람들이<span class="s1"> </span>하는<span class="s1"> </span>일을<span class="s1"> </span>하는<span class="s1"> </span>아이돌은<span class="s1"> </span>더<span class="s1"> </span>이상<span class="s1"> </span>우상의<span class="s1"> </span>위치에<span class="s1"> </span>머무르지<span class="s1"> </span>않고<span class="s1"> </span>현실로<span class="s1"> </span>내려올<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>밖에<span class="s1"> </span>없었다<span class="s1">.</span>
아이돌이<span class="s1">, </span>아이돌로<span class="s1"> </span>남기<span class="s1"> </span>위해선<span class="s1"> </span>현실에서<span class="s1"> </span>만나는<span class="s1"> </span>관계가<span class="s1"> </span>아닌<span class="s1">, </span>상상<span class="s1"> </span>속에서<span class="s1"> </span>만남을<span class="s1"> </span>이어가야<span class="s1"> </span>했다<span class="s1">. </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>둘이<span class="s1"> </span>직접<span class="s1"> </span>만날<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>있는<span class="s1"> </span>건<span class="s1">, </span>우상과<span class="s1"> </span>팬들이<span class="s1"> </span>만나는,<span class="s1"> 그들의 </span>신전인<span class="s1"> </span>무대와<span class="s1"> </span>팬미팅회일뿐<span class="s1">.. </span>
그<span class="s1"> </span>영역을<span class="s1"> </span>더<span class="s1"> </span>이상<span class="s1"> </span>벗어나는<span class="s1"> </span>순간<span class="s1">.. </span>상상<span class="s1"> </span>속<span class="s1"> </span>존재는<span class="s1">, </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>관계들은<span class="s1">.. </span>
쿠첸은<span class="s1"> </span>마침내<span class="s1"> </span>약속<span class="s1"> </span>장소에 도착해 문 앞에<span class="s1"> </span>섰지만<span class="s1">, </span>선뜻<span class="s1"> </span>들어설<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>없었다<span class="s1">.</span>
만약<span class="s1"> 그가 </span>직접<span class="s1"> </span>모습을<span class="s1"> </span>드러낸다면<span class="s1">..</span>
자신이<span class="s1"> </span>강리자를<span class="s1"> </span>만나게<span class="s1"> </span>되는<span class="s1"> </span>순간<span class="s1">, </span>상상<span class="s1"> </span>속<span class="s1"> </span>아이돌인<span class="s1"> </span>피아는<span class="s1"> </span>사라질지도<span class="s1"> </span>모른다<span class="s1">. </span>사랑방의<span class="s1"> </span>아이돌<span class="s1"> </span>쿠첸<span class="s1"> </span>역시<span class="s1"> </span>마찬가지였다<span class="s1">. </span>쿠첸은<span class="s1"> </span>사랑방<span class="s1"> </span>속에서<span class="s1"> </span>존재하는<span class="s1"> </span>것이였다. 만약<span class="s1"> </span>현실에서<span class="s1"> </span>나타나게<span class="s1"> </span>된다면<span class="s1">…</span>
현실에서의<span class="s1"> </span>아이돌<span class="s1">, </span>사랑방에서<span class="s1"> </span>아이돌<span class="s1">, </span>피아와<span class="s1"> </span>쿠첸은<span class="s1"> </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>순간<span class="s1"> </span>둘<span class="s1"> </span>다<span class="s1"> </span>사라지고<span class="s1"> </span>말<span class="s1"> </span>것이다<span class="s1">. </span>
<span class="s1">‘</span>나를<span class="s1"> </span>좋아해주는건<span class="s1">... </span>아이돌<span class="s1"> </span>피아로써<span class="s1"> </span>좋아해준거지.. 쿠첸 역시 오로지 사랑방 속의 쿠첸으로써.. <span class="s1"> </span>아이돌은<span class="s1">, </span>우상은<span class="s1">, </span>허상이라고<span class="s1"> </span>했지만<span class="s1">.. </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>허상이<span class="s1"> </span>있어서<span class="s1"> </span>오히려<span class="s1"> </span>환상이<span class="s1"> </span>만들<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>있는건데<span class="s1">.. </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>환상이<span class="s1"> </span>현실로<span class="s1"> </span>내려오면<span class="s1">.. </span>더<span class="s1"> </span>이상<span class="s1"> </span>아이돌로<span class="s1"> </span>남을<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>있을까<span class="s1">..?’</span>
아이돌이<span class="s1"> </span>연애를<span class="s1"> </span>하지<span class="s1"> </span>않는<span class="s1"> </span>이유<span class="s1">. </span>아이돌이<span class="s1"> </span>사람으로써<span class="s1"> </span>내려오지<span class="s1"> </span>않는<span class="s1"> </span>이유<span class="s1">. </span>아이돌과<span class="s1"> </span>팬은,<span class="s1"> </span>아이돌과<span class="s1"> </span>팬으로만<span class="s1"> </span>남아야<span class="s1"> </span>하는<span class="s1"> </span>이유<span class="s1">.. </span>쿠첸은<span class="s1"> </span>다시<span class="s1"> </span>한번<span class="s1"> </span>곰곰히<span class="s1"> </span>생각했다<span class="s1">. </span>
‘나는<span class="s1">...</span>나는<span class="s1"> </span>아이돌이야<span class="s1">. </span>영원히<span class="s1"> </span>누구에게나<span class="s1"> </span>아이돌로<span class="s1"> </span>남을거야<span class="s1">. </span>지상에<span class="s1"> </span>발을<span class="s1"> </span>딛지<span class="s1"> </span>않고<span class="s1">.’</span>
쿠첸은<span class="s1"> </span>문고리를<span class="s1"> </span>잡고<span class="s1"> </span>싶은<span class="s1"> </span>마음을<span class="s1"> </span>한참동안<span class="s1"> </span>억누르고<span class="s1"> </span>서있었다<span class="s1">. </span>
<span class="s1">‘..</span>나는<span class="s1"> </span>당신에게도<span class="s1"> </span>영원한<span class="s1"> </span>아이돌로<span class="s1"> </span>남겠어<span class="s1">. </span>사랑방에서든<span class="s1">, </span>현실에서든<span class="s1">..! ‘</span>
마침내 쿠첸은, 그리고 피아는, 발길을<span class="s1"> </span>돌렸다<span class="s1">.</span>
5.
-오<span class="s1">, </span>지금<span class="s1"> </span>청대에<span class="s1"> </span>피아<span class="s1"> </span>왔데요<span class="s1">.</span>
-촬영<span class="s1"> </span>있나<span class="s1">? </span>요즘<span class="s1"> </span>예능<span class="s1"> </span>많이<span class="s1"> </span>찍던데<span class="s1">.</span>
-그런건<span class="s1"> </span>아니고<span class="s1"> </span>매니저도<span class="s1"> </span>없이<span class="s1"> </span>혼자왔다는데<span class="s1">? </span>
-와<span class="s1">, </span>강리자<span class="s1"> </span>결혼소식 듣고<span class="s1"> </span>있다는거<span class="s1"> </span>알고<span class="s1"> </span>찾아온거<span class="s1"> </span>아니야<span class="s1">?</span>
-그럴리가 ㅋㅋ
- 트위터엔 울고<span class="s1"> </span>있다는<span class="s1"> </span>얘기도<span class="s1"> </span>있는데<span class="s1"> </span>애인한테<span class="s1"> </span>차였나<span class="s1">.</span>
강리자는<span class="s1"> </span>피아<span class="s1"> </span>얘기로<span class="s1"> </span>떠들석한 사람들 속에 앉아있었다. 그러나 그의 머리속에서 자꾸 맴도는 것은 한 사람 뿐이었다.
<span class="s1">- </span>비<span class="s1"> </span>오기<span class="s1"> </span>전에<span class="s1"> </span>자리를<span class="s1"> </span>옮기죠<span class="s1">.</span>
<span class="s1">-</span>오<span class="s1">, </span>좋아요
신이<span class="s1"> </span>난<span class="s1"> </span>사람들은<span class="s1"> </span>머뭇거리지<span class="s1"> </span>않고<span class="s1"> </span>바삐<span class="s1"> </span>움직였다<span class="s1">. </span>그러나<span class="s1"> </span>강리자는<span class="s1"> </span>계산을<span class="s1"> </span>한<span class="s1"> </span>후<span class="s1"> </span>마지막까지도<span class="s1"> </span>문<span class="s1"> </span>앞에<span class="s1"> </span>서성였다<span class="s1">.</span>
<span class="s1">‘</span>이<span class="s1"> </span>자리에<span class="s1"> </span>늦게라도<span class="s1"> </span>와준다면<span class="s1"> </span>좋을텐데<span class="s1">. </span>쿠첸<span class="s1">..’</span>
발을 딛고 서있는 자리가, 방금전까지 피아가 있던 자리라는 것을 알 수 있는 방법은 없었다.
마침내<span class="s1"> </span>빗방울이<span class="s1"> </span>떨어지기<span class="s1"> </span>시작했고..
강리자는<span class="s1"> </span>떨어지지<span class="s1"> </span>않는<span class="s1"> </span>발걸음을<span class="s1"> </span>옮겼다<span class="s1">..</span>
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# | 제목 | 글쓴이 | 조회수 | 등록일 |
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울산왔다 [4] | ooo | |||
.. x 15 [4] | 쿠쿠 | |||
.. x 20 [7] | 쿠쿠 | |||
조용한 빼빼로데이 x 2 [5] | 뱀프장군 | |||
트와이스 TT 댄스커버 [2] | 아킹 | |||
불금인데 다들 뭐해? x 5 후방주의 [7] | 뭐니 | |||
리자횽 이 물건을 봐줘...어떻게 생각해? x 2 [7] | 자택경비원 | |||
2011.5.9~10후쿠오카 x 17 [4] | 자택경비원 | |||
오늘부터 나는 [4] | 자택경비원 | |||
akb에서도 가뭄에 콩나듯 좋은 곡이 나온다 | 관리자 | |||
개인적으로 찌질곡 베스트 10을 꼽는다면 이게 꼭 들어갑니다 [3] | 자택경비원 | |||
오라 달콤한 죽음이여 | 뱀프장군 | |||
퇴사 일주일 남음(데이터 조심) x 6 [2] | 자택경비원 | |||
퇴사 일주일 남음. 회사컴 바탕화면에 있는 이미지 파일 다 올려봄 x 29 [4] | 자택경비원 | |||
안녕_러블리즈 (부제: 격정의 시대의 서막) [2] | 뱀프장군 | |||
세컨드 임팩트 x 1 | 뱀프장군 | |||
인실좆... | 발라 | |||
사랑이 아니라 말하지 말아요. | 소금 | |||
백투더퓨처구나 x 2 [2] | SB 로보 | |||
이 얼마나 아름다운 장면이란 말인가. x 1 [2] | 레알_애무 | |||
뭐 미국대선 누가 되든 한가지 확실한건 x 3 [5] | 자택경비원 | |||
회개하라 천국이 가까이 왔느니라. x 1 [2] | 자택경비원 | |||
인간의 욕심은 끝이 없고, 관람차는 밤새도록 돌아간다.. x 1 [2] | 뱀프장군 | |||
나는 결국 오늘 x 1 [3] | 자택경비원 | |||
Glitter_f(x) | 뱀프장군 |
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